600 miles down, 0 to go
Where are we? On an Amtrak train headed to Michigan. Off the trail.
I woke up this morning, freezing and numb from the cold. I packed my bag and ate a Pop-tart, crying in between bites.
In my mind, I've been done with the trail the last few days but haven't wanted to admit it, feeling like we'd done so much to get where we are. And nearly 600 miles in, over a quarter of the way. Since it started getting bitter cold, I realized that we didn't beat the cold, even though we were heading south. Fall and its change in weather was already upon us. With needing to buy winter gear very soon and gear being expensive, we wouldn't be able to finish the trail with the money we have. As much as I want to get to Springer Mountain in Georgia, I realize that we wouldn't be there for another 1,500 miles, or three months, enduring a lot of the miserable cold. As much as I want to finish, I don't want to put myself through misery just to get a picture on a mountain, or the feeling that "we did it."
As the terrain passes outside, and we get further and further from the trail, I can't help but feel like I let Ethan down. He wanted so bad to continue on the trail and finish, but he would not accept being without me to be on the trail. I love him for that, but can't help but feel a little bummed.
I am bummed, I admit. But I know that God will open the right doors for us and continue to provide in ways unimaginable!
We have had some amazing times, unimaginable views and met wonderful people along the way. What we've learned in a few weeks is what some learn over the course of years. This experience has definitely drawn us closer, and has been the experience of a lifetime.
Right now, we are on a train to Toledo, with a connecting bus that will arrive in Detroit at 7 am. We met a wonderful trail friend from Michigan, in Rutland at the Yellow Deli Hostel, and again at Green Mountain, who had to get off the trail due to a kidney infection. She graciously offered us a ride to Ethan's parents house in Lake Ann.
We will probably spend some time in Michigan before heading back to Seattle to return to the hustle and bustle of school and work. We'd like to visit some friends in Chicago and in the south, enjoy our adventure. We've got Ethan's birthday in a few days and our first anniversary on the 15th.
If you would've told me a year ago, days before I was to marry my best friend, that within a years time I would quit my "dream" job, start hiking a 2,000+ mile long trail with a tiny savings account, only to quit six weeks in, I wouldn't believe you. Because who I was is not who I am.
Who's to say we won't finish the trail in the future, with the hardest part under our belt? God works in mysterious ways. We are so excited to see what doors He opens next, on our little adventure.